I'm sick D: Headache yesterday. Felt like dying. Vomitted my dinner out. Went to school today. Watch some gross movie for LA lecture with blood and bombs everywhere and felt like puking again. Whole day felt like dying. Went home. Did homework. Now I feel like dying again. Aish.
I don't want to be sick....not in that sense... ): aish you won't understand what i mean unless you know what i mean. ): aish. sick. ):
Sick.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
IRRITATING.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
I'm damn pissed at a few people. I don't know but some people really gets on my nerves.
Firstly, I can't get people who complains that they are not acknowledged when they should be because everyone else is. Personally, I don't want to share this with you. Why should I? You're not as good as me and the rest? Are you? Even if you are, so what? your attitude towards this whole things is just disgusting. I hate it when you don't even show that you care. All you do is laugh it off? Irritating. If you want to be acknowledged, then why aren't you showing pride in it? Instead of making you climb the stairs like the rest of us, you're taking the lift. What else do you want? Seriously. Irritating.
Secondly, I can't get people who gets everything to themselves? not that I'm being 'chi bu dao pu tao shuo pu tao suan' or smth but then sometimes, do they actually deserve the credit to everything? No? And the worst is, its not like people are the ones thinking that they deserve it, but they think they do. Irritating. And when people happen to boost their ego, they order others around? Disgusting.
On another note, I hate it when people interrupts when I'm doing my own stuff? Or at least things that are under my control? I hate it. Absolutely hate it. When I'm pissed, someone comes in and interrupts me? when that person does not have anything to do with the situation? Not only that the way they speak....the way they stand. seriously. It sucks to know that I'm about to share the same 'acknowledgement' as you. Whatever I do = you do? No? You did nothing at all.
It's like. I try to close my eyes and act as if I cannot see a lot of things but some stuff is like thrown directly into my face. How can I ignore it? And its worse when I'm not giving the 'authority' to tell you off because I'm no more senior than you? But sometimes, its so irritating that I feel that it doesnt matter if I take it out on you? Because you deserve it? omg. your attitude sucks.
ON THE OTHER HAND, clarissa, khengwee and I (and lumjia for guyline) pitched flag in 6.30! :DD thats even faster than the last record of 6.48 by me, shuning and erntian! :D teehee. today's pitch are super nice :D all around 7mins? except for the hemp duan4 one! :D full pitch was 10mins plus! :D except the hemp duan4 one :/ yay~ :DD so happy :D
I seriously sound like some crazy person with moodswings :X this is random but....SHOULD I GO FOR SHINEE AUTOGRAPHY SESSION? D:
Aish. So many things to do in sec 4. sian D: jiayou jiayou everyone! :D
Firstly, I can't get people who complains that they are not acknowledged when they should be because everyone else is. Personally, I don't want to share this with you. Why should I? You're not as good as me and the rest? Are you? Even if you are, so what? your attitude towards this whole things is just disgusting. I hate it when you don't even show that you care. All you do is laugh it off? Irritating. If you want to be acknowledged, then why aren't you showing pride in it? Instead of making you climb the stairs like the rest of us, you're taking the lift. What else do you want? Seriously. Irritating.
Secondly, I can't get people who gets everything to themselves? not that I'm being 'chi bu dao pu tao shuo pu tao suan' or smth but then sometimes, do they actually deserve the credit to everything? No? And the worst is, its not like people are the ones thinking that they deserve it, but they think they do. Irritating. And when people happen to boost their ego, they order others around? Disgusting.
On another note, I hate it when people interrupts when I'm doing my own stuff? Or at least things that are under my control? I hate it. Absolutely hate it. When I'm pissed, someone comes in and interrupts me? when that person does not have anything to do with the situation? Not only that the way they speak....the way they stand. seriously. It sucks to know that I'm about to share the same 'acknowledgement' as you. Whatever I do = you do? No? You did nothing at all.
It's like. I try to close my eyes and act as if I cannot see a lot of things but some stuff is like thrown directly into my face. How can I ignore it? And its worse when I'm not giving the 'authority' to tell you off because I'm no more senior than you? But sometimes, its so irritating that I feel that it doesnt matter if I take it out on you? Because you deserve it? omg. your attitude sucks.
ON THE OTHER HAND, clarissa, khengwee and I (and lumjia for guyline) pitched flag in 6.30! :DD thats even faster than the last record of 6.48 by me, shuning and erntian! :D teehee. today's pitch are super nice :D all around 7mins? except for the hemp duan4 one! :D full pitch was 10mins plus! :D except the hemp duan4 one :/ yay~ :DD so happy :D
I seriously sound like some crazy person with moodswings :X this is random but....SHOULD I GO FOR SHINEE AUTOGRAPHY SESSION? D:
Aish. So many things to do in sec 4. sian D: jiayou jiayou everyone! :D
again and again.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Again and again. the lyrics are quite D:
sad day.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Today is such a sad day. aish.
________, cheer up okay! D: squadmates will always be there for you D: -hugs-
________, cheer up okay! D: squadmates will always be there for you D: -hugs-
we will always be behind you...promise (:
we love you! <3
Why.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
I was looking forward to it. I was. And when you did, you changed. So then...why did you come back?
5 days and still counting...
5 days and still counting...
KEY! <3
Monday, January 18, 2010
teehee omg i love key's rapping in love letters (:
JONGHYUN! <3
omg i love jonghyun :D
Take a bow.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Baby I deserve more than empty words and promises...
2009.
I've decided to copy and paste my reflection for last year in this blog (:
2009.
The year didn't exactly start well. My grandpa passed away. Tears and all gone. Aish. I guess...I remember how it hurts to see my relatives crying. Ones that are close to me. especially jieyi. Both of us grew up a lot and I've always been the one crying. And i rather it be that way. It hurts like crap to see you cry and wouldnt stop ): Cheer up kay? Things aren't going well for you...but it will pass...love you (:
306 was a good thing i guess. I've met new friends. Classmates that are close to me that aren't just squadmates who revolve around me 24/7. (: thanks khengwee, yingyue, emily, huiling, jinyi, natalie, huishan, weishan etc. for all the things you have done for me this year (: I've been very happy (: hehe thanks to all those memories~ thanks for celebrating my birthday in front of the class yah (: yingyue thanks for the cake! thanks for the presents! thanks for always being there for me! (: thanks 306~ 406'10 ftw!
CNY. wu shi for the first time (: hai disappointed that i didn't have a chance to wu with jacjac ): jacjac dont be scared of wu-ing shi okay! you got your shiwei behind you! (literally too -.-) yay when you learn how to wu shi properly then we can tiaotiao tgther and do fantastic stunts k! jiayoujiayou! (: wo men xing de! khengwee! though you cant tiaotiao on me but u're still my dearest shi tou (: class caiqing was the best~ haha jiayou~ nxt yr caiqing. dno if it will be successful...but I hope I can wu with both of you. (:
OBS. Disappointed that I wasnt in the same group as rebecca, emily and khengwee? I dont regret now that I think of it. memories for obs is the best :DDD hehe bring smiles to my face everytime I think of it (: (hint hint jinyi) amundsen oy! :D
IPST scholarship. I'm really lucky to get it. aish.
Chem Ecar Competition. Icemo got into Top 5 in nanyang (: we represented nanyang in ngeeann poly comp. Sadly we didnt win ): but the other 306 group did! (: grats. icemo all the way~!
NPDP. Was flag bearer with ma'ams and peiting. (: haha it was a new experience (: felt so cool doing hormat for national anthem hoho. xD I guess the best day of every year is NPDP bah! feels so cool wearing full-u for one whole day although its super hot and sweaty! (: yay nynp! (:
Dalt Dinner. Last dalt dinner with ma'ams. Probably the last one too.
NYST2. Amelia ma'am, alicia, wenxian, glenda and me. Sadly we came in 4th only ): hai. I screwed finals. I hate the reason why. I feel srsly damn sorry for ma'am and sqdms because my two-digit score totally killed our team...or we could have gotten first... ): sorry...i shouldn't have let myself lose concentration...
UGBC. Champion. Jiajia, glenda and me (: thanks for the support always (: the practices we had together are wonderful memories (: haha.
STC'09. Barney. Things changed for me. Met new people who changed alot of things...
POP'09. 40 ma'ams left. Sqdms and I took over the unit. New NCO post: 42 Training head, functions member. Things didn't go well at first....squad conflict...different opinions...aish....i'm glad it was all over. And I'm very happy for my post. (: I hope everyone else is too. haha...
NCOTC. thank you ma'ams once again for all the valuable comments (: hehe squids ku de shi hou hao ke pa :X aish. jiayou 41! (: half more year to go~ ke yi de (: yay~ 41 ftw!
Scolded unit for the first time. Wasn't as easy as it seemed.
End of School term 09. Shandong trip. Met another group of people who made my life more enjoyable! (: Shandong group 4! :D Clarissa, Ke er, Alicia, Amanda, Weimin~
In December, something happened. changed my point of view of alot of things. I don't think I have forgiven them. And don't think I would...in the near future. Things changed. I hope you noticed.
NYCT'10! was in team 1...now in team 2. Seriously, I have yet to feel a sense of belonging to team 2. I feel like...I'm hanging in midair belonging to no team...I want to go back ): I know I do. But because I know the reason for the change...I cannot ignore it...aish. lasher. I wanted that role...but I wanted my ____ more ): sigh. things changed...jiayou...nyct...I just don't know which team to cheer for...
This year, I've changed a lot. personality and stuff...I don't want to change anymore...I want to revert back to myself. Just that with some stuff happening, i can't really revert back to myself so soon...not soon enough. I need to get over some stuff. I need to forget some stuff...before I can move on...
The year is ending in 2h. 2010. I hope things will change for the better next year. Thank you to my classmates and friends who have been there for me this year! (: last but no least, thank you squadmates! for not just being there for me but going through everything with me and making my memories of NYNP even better! (: jiayou everyone! in year 2010! (: hehe.
Goodbye 2009. Welcome 2010. (:
2009.
The year didn't exactly start well. My grandpa passed away. Tears and all gone. Aish. I guess...I remember how it hurts to see my relatives crying. Ones that are close to me. especially jieyi. Both of us grew up a lot and I've always been the one crying. And i rather it be that way. It hurts like crap to see you cry and wouldnt stop ): Cheer up kay? Things aren't going well for you...but it will pass...love you (:
306 was a good thing i guess. I've met new friends. Classmates that are close to me that aren't just squadmates who revolve around me 24/7. (: thanks khengwee, yingyue, emily, huiling, jinyi, natalie, huishan, weishan etc. for all the things you have done for me this year (: I've been very happy (: hehe thanks to all those memories~ thanks for celebrating my birthday in front of the class yah (: yingyue thanks for the cake! thanks for the presents! thanks for always being there for me! (: thanks 306~ 406'10 ftw!
CNY. wu shi for the first time (: hai disappointed that i didn't have a chance to wu with jacjac ): jacjac dont be scared of wu-ing shi okay! you got your shiwei behind you! (literally too -.-) yay when you learn how to wu shi properly then we can tiaotiao tgther and do fantastic stunts k! jiayoujiayou! (: wo men xing de! khengwee! though you cant tiaotiao on me but u're still my dearest shi tou (: class caiqing was the best~ haha jiayou~ nxt yr caiqing. dno if it will be successful...but I hope I can wu with both of you. (:
OBS. Disappointed that I wasnt in the same group as rebecca, emily and khengwee? I dont regret now that I think of it. memories for obs is the best :DDD hehe bring smiles to my face everytime I think of it (: (hint hint jinyi) amundsen oy! :D
IPST scholarship. I'm really lucky to get it. aish.
Chem Ecar Competition. Icemo got into Top 5 in nanyang (: we represented nanyang in ngeeann poly comp. Sadly we didnt win ): but the other 306 group did! (: grats. icemo all the way~!
NPDP. Was flag bearer with ma'ams and peiting. (: haha it was a new experience (: felt so cool doing hormat for national anthem hoho. xD I guess the best day of every year is NPDP bah! feels so cool wearing full-u for one whole day although its super hot and sweaty! (: yay nynp! (:
Dalt Dinner. Last dalt dinner with ma'ams. Probably the last one too.
NYST2. Amelia ma'am, alicia, wenxian, glenda and me. Sadly we came in 4th only ): hai. I screwed finals. I hate the reason why. I feel srsly damn sorry for ma'am and sqdms because my two-digit score totally killed our team...or we could have gotten first... ): sorry...i shouldn't have let myself lose concentration...
UGBC. Champion. Jiajia, glenda and me (: thanks for the support always (: the practices we had together are wonderful memories (: haha.
STC'09. Barney. Things changed for me. Met new people who changed alot of things...
POP'09. 40 ma'ams left. Sqdms and I took over the unit. New NCO post: 42 Training head, functions member. Things didn't go well at first....squad conflict...different opinions...aish....i'm glad it was all over. And I'm very happy for my post. (: I hope everyone else is too. haha...
NCOTC. thank you ma'ams once again for all the valuable comments (: hehe squids ku de shi hou hao ke pa :X aish. jiayou 41! (: half more year to go~ ke yi de (: yay~ 41 ftw!
Scolded unit for the first time. Wasn't as easy as it seemed.
End of School term 09. Shandong trip. Met another group of people who made my life more enjoyable! (: Shandong group 4! :D Clarissa, Ke er, Alicia, Amanda, Weimin~
In December, something happened. changed my point of view of alot of things. I don't think I have forgiven them. And don't think I would...in the near future. Things changed. I hope you noticed.
NYCT'10! was in team 1...now in team 2. Seriously, I have yet to feel a sense of belonging to team 2. I feel like...I'm hanging in midair belonging to no team...I want to go back ): I know I do. But because I know the reason for the change...I cannot ignore it...aish. lasher. I wanted that role...but I wanted my ____ more ): sigh. things changed...jiayou...nyct...I just don't know which team to cheer for...
This year, I've changed a lot. personality and stuff...I don't want to change anymore...I want to revert back to myself. Just that with some stuff happening, i can't really revert back to myself so soon...not soon enough. I need to get over some stuff. I need to forget some stuff...before I can move on...
The year is ending in 2h. 2010. I hope things will change for the better next year. Thank you to my classmates and friends who have been there for me this year! (: last but no least, thank you squadmates! for not just being there for me but going through everything with me and making my memories of NYNP even better! (: jiayou everyone! in year 2010! (: hehe.
Goodbye 2009. Welcome 2010. (:
Moving on.
I've decided to move on after a long long time (:
