The last thing I want this year is to have what happened last year to happen to me again. Seriously, I think if it happens again, I doubt I can take it anymore. I'm pissed, irritated and disgusted by myself. I've never really recovered from it, did I? To think that I had...

I don't want to sink any deeper because there isn't anyone to pull me out this time...and I won't surface again. Don't want to think what will happen after that. _____. Ha. Maybe it isn't so far away anymore. Yet again...maybe it's the only way out.