Just don't read this post if you don't really want to.

Aish. Term 1 is over. Today's the last day. but why do i feel so D:?

I guess it's not just one person or one reason sort of thing. There's so many things to think about D: __________, ct, stress, homework, block tests, _____ ___ and stuff...sigh. This post isn't directly pointed to anyone so yeah...

khengwee! D: i miss you so much ah! D: get well soon and come back to school kay? D: I can't do so many things without you! D: sob. I called but you were sleeping ): aish. felt so ______ without you ): aish. get well soon! so we can complain abt random stuff, go to sqd table tgther, walk to lessons tgther, lash tgther, lalala and take class photo! D: WHY YOU NEVER COME D: must get better okay D: huggie!

Aish. somehow today so many things happened. I noticed that __________ are people who will never neglect and forget you. Somehow today when khengwee wasn't there I felt a whole lot different. When I needed someone...somehow I couldn't find anyone. It felt really bad ): I felt seriously _________ and _________ ... seriously...it sucked.

About the whole _____ thing, I don't know but it seemed as though you people are choosing based on __________...and yes i was very upset over it okay but yah maybe you all failed to notice that. I don't think I'm the only one. How do you think I will feel if everyone else is chosen...but I'm not? I doesn't mean that I don't cry means I don't care...

On to another issue...

I think I will cry when it ends D: how...? Aish...I don't know ____ ____ but somehow...I feel exceptionally upset over this...It's such a one-off thing D: but somehow I feel that I will ____ ____ alot D: WHY! Am I getting abit too emotionally involved in all of this!? aish!

Everything is so damn messy and there's no one there to help. Those who once were...aren't there anymore...or maybe...it's just because everything changed? I really don't know ): Why did all this happen in the first place? Everything is just splitting apart... We once said we won't drift apart isn't it...and then all this happened...it just leaves me feeling very tired and stranded.

I really feel like shit. seriously...

and I don't think those tears were sufficient to express my fustration and upsetness.

I feel seriously upset over all this crappe. except no one will really understand isn't it? EVERYTHING IS JUST WRONG WRONG WRONG! T.T WHY IS EVERYTHING LIKE THAT T.T I really feel like giving up on all this things...I really feel like becoming inmune to all this others got to say...I really feel like becoming numb and ignorant....becoming senseless and feelingless...

hatred? except I can't say I hate any of you...kills to know the people who hurts you most are the people you call 'close' to you...