HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DADDY! <3 LOVE YOU :D

I don't know if this blog post will make me sound like a stalker or something but I guess I should say it even if you won't read it. I'll take it as some...reflection sort of thing...okay...

Being in NP for 4 years changed me a lot, from some childish kid who whines over the smallest matter to someone who actually leads the rest of the unit. Transition wasn't easy. Nothing was easy. Even spending that 3 years fighting alongside my squadmates weren't easy...maybe not fighting alongside...but all the bickering...and random moments. I guess it's really different after being used to all the care and protection you can get from your NCOs to like total self-independence?

I guess I wasn't exactly the kind of cadet that shines in the limelight... I wasn't the kind who does everything best. I wasn't the kind that gets picked as the best representative for some competition or through an interview. Until now, I don't think I'm really that good an NCO not to mention a training head or a super spontaneous functions member...haha...of course...screwing up campcraft comp and shooting comp...for like...the last time? haha nyct'10, nyst'10.

It's going to be difficult on all of you and I know maybe i shouldn't start talking about this as if I understand. Because the truth is I've never been in a ___________. So it's very different..But I wish for all of you to treasure that one last year you got together and for once put aside all those difference...and work together. It's going to be difficult...but quick. It'll be over soon. Is that relieving to hear? Or sad? (Haha. Until now I haven't made up my mind.)

__, I never been much of a ___________ to you all. I wasn't the best role model. I wasn't the best __________. But for once... ______________________________________... I tried to make it better...I will too. Promise.

Fill in the blanks yourselves. You do know the answer. It's whether you want to put in the effort to think about it or not.

Love,
Your ____________.

P.S I do pin high hopes on every single one of you...

When the music stops, I would stop pouring my heart out to you. I would stop _____________.

Today was .22 Prelims...

jiayou to team 1. I guess team 2 won't be joining you for shooting practices anymore. Jiayou and bring the trophy back again!

To nyst team 2:
Though everyone seemed to 'not mind', I guess in our hearts we really wanted to get into finals and win. Shooting is a very individual thing unlike CT where everyone pitch as a team and what you get is more like a team effort. Shooting counts on that one precise second before you release the bullet from the revolver. I guess we just mis...judged? Eish. I guess we just...got super...uptight before the comps...and screwed up...shuo dao zuo dao. I guess we didn't really hit the red circle target. I hope...that all of us...won't be too...upset...over....it.... :/ argh ): I feel quite dui bu qi ting who shot...relatively well? and puayling and jiexi since its their first shooting comp. I'm so sorry that its screwed up ): sian.

I just noticed that I didnt really reflect on nyst'09 and nyct'10. I guess I killed myself directly after the comps :X AHHH SIAN T^T i'm screwing up my np life ): when there's only

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I'm screwed.