I don't know if this blog post will make me sound like a stalker or something but I guess I should say it even if you won't read it. I'll take it as some...reflection sort of thing...okay...

Being in NP for 4 years changed me a lot, from some childish kid who whines over the smallest matter to someone who actually leads the rest of the unit. Transition wasn't easy. Nothing was easy. Even spending that 3 years fighting alongside my squadmates weren't easy...maybe not fighting alongside...but all the bickering...and random moments. I guess it's really different after being used to all the care and protection you can get from your NCOs to like total self-independence?

I guess I wasn't exactly the kind of cadet that shines in the limelight... I wasn't the kind who does everything best. I wasn't the kind that gets picked as the best representative for some competition or through an interview. Until now, I don't think I'm really that good an NCO not to mention a training head or a super spontaneous functions member...haha...of course...screwing up campcraft comp and shooting comp...for like...the last time? haha nyct'10, nyst'10.

It's going to be difficult on all of you and I know maybe i shouldn't start talking about this as if I understand. Because the truth is I've never been in a ___________. So it's very different..But I wish for all of you to treasure that one last year you got together and for once put aside all those difference...and work together. It's going to be difficult...but quick. It'll be over soon. Is that relieving to hear? Or sad? (Haha. Until now I haven't made up my mind.)

__, I never been much of a ___________ to you all. I wasn't the best role model. I wasn't the best __________. But for once... ______________________________________... I tried to make it better...I will too. Promise.

Fill in the blanks yourselves. You do know the answer. It's whether you want to put in the effort to think about it or not.

Love,
Your ____________.

P.S I do pin high hopes on every single one of you...