It's always been you writing those letters to me and I've never thought that for once...I would have to write one to you.

I don't know if you will read this...I don't know if you will care...I don't know even if I sms you this...email you this...msn you this...you will respond to me...

I really really really don't want us to drift apart ): you promised you won't let that happen ): you promised! D: but somehow this few weeks...(even months?) i feel like all this promises that you've once made doesnt matter anymore... it may...to me. but nothing to you? I may not talk about it...but that doesn't mean I've never appreciated you by my side.

I don't want you change ): but...I guess you believe otherwise... After you came back...everything just seem so different...I felt that you've never actually come back... what about everything you've said before you left? did you forget? ): you said you would be back really soon and tell me not to be upset or anything... isn't your 'really soon' really long? ): I've waited and waited and all I get is...bit and pieces of eveything. everything thats not completed.

I don't know how you feel about this...I never knew but I want to. I always wanted to but you will never tell me the truth. Why does everything have to be so complicated in the first place? ): I feel like I'm the only one trying to stay aboard the sinking ship and you've already given up hope... I feel like I'm the only one trying...only one.

What happened to you? ): You've said you will always be here but now when I need you, you're no where near. You've said it sucks to see me cry, but now when I'm crying, you don't care anymore. You suck seriously. What made you change so much? ): what made you treat me like this? ): why are you ignoring me? ): why are you...argh D:

I hate it. I want you to come back ): so even if I plea with all my heart and tears...would you even care? Come back...write me a letter...even if its the last thing you would do for me...