It's over. Should I be glad or upset?

Glad, because I'm finally released from this heavy heavy expectation and pressure...this committment...or upset because ct life is all over and no matter how I've regretted...nothing will change it?

I can't say that team 2 did exceptionally well or really bad. I believe that if we've tried our best...then that's that. I trust that everyone of us wanted to try their best and win. everyone can say 'its not winning that matters.' but in the end what actually upsetted us...what actually matters...was it the experience or peter szeto yee (in this case coming in 7th)...or what? it doesn't make sense. Maybe I'm a competitive freak or something, but I really wanted to win...even if its just fulfilling the secret goal that team 2 set...I seriously felt...super fail and disappointed...

Aish.

Despite the disappointment in results, thank you team 2 (and team 1 for the short period of time) for the memories you all have given me in the whole NYCT'10 experience. thank you for all those little presents and messages (: they were very heartwarming (:

sponge~

tattered and torn.